Taking The First Strike~Operation Blue Rinse Commenced! Execute! Execute! Execute!!!

“Somehow I just dont give a damn on what others wanna say about me…yet those words pierced into me and can till cut me down.”

Part A

I know, sorry, the title doesn’t make any sense. But who’s to blame? That’s just me being me, honestly living the rest of my short intense non-uneventful yet routine life to its fullest. Yeah! Making every single day count till I drop death and buried six feet under (or burned. or even dematerialized into atoms ~ depending the details of my own demise) Lol. Okay. I’m still not making any sense….maybe I should stop and focus now.

I’ve inserted several lines up above. Those are how it’s gonna be now. I will quotes something ~ those are my own words, and sometimes I’ll put it as a hint to my hidden agenda ~ messages. if you could find some. those will be my secrets messages – something I am sharing indirectly to you my friends. Those will help you to help me…But what the hell…todays are just what bugging me this week. Nothing so serious, nothing I cant handle. So maybe next time we’ll start playing decode what Rayvincent is trying to say. Hahaha…

Life continue and I keep treating this now “life’s a big badass bastard’ as a WAR. A war of no return and loosing is not an options. My opponent. Everything that wants to bring me down and now there’s a lot of those fraking things lining~awaiting those unpredictable “shits happens” moment, wanting to mess me again.

URGH!!! Marah sudah ni.

Yeah well, so far, the biggest and the only enemy left is my very own self existence. Me, myself and I. Lol. Miss this words. Me,myself and I. 3 different things yet they all meant the same. So, my biggest enemy now is my own self. It’s human nature I know to have all sort of attitudes and behaviors . My tendencies to “taking the easy way out“, “procrastinations“, “being lazy“, “arrogant“, “lack of confidence” etc etc really are stopping me right here, right now. Damn.

Ryan! You are the ~DADK~dont stop now! (What’s DADK? haha…I’ve written it before. It has different meaning so dont say its “dont ask dont know”…well, kinda, but it stands something else which is now my other call sign)

Part B

Xcel taking place next week. Damn. Frak betul la ni. Now I really wish Earth has 48 hours a day. I am not ready! What I had is not enough! I know la, sorry, I talk about this a lot but now in more detail.

Taking The First Strike.

That sounds appropriate. I’m not ready yet. It’s like you have to fight an enemy that you know nothing of and then you cant escape. *Sigh* Siapa mau ponteng hari tu. So now I have to really last minute study la ni, like always ~ like before. Lol. Diniy, Anugera, Aiman and the rest are not ready yet. Erm, I dont know if they’re telling the truth or not but for sure they also don’t want to get the last place which I too definitely not going to “enthroned” again.

But what’s scary now is that I have no ideas on whats and who’s who. This is the fog of war. Everyone is rival in studies now. Yet I dont know who’s the smart one, who’s the doing just okay ones, or even who’s the “underachieving” students in my class. The threat can come hitting you from anywhere and anyone. If it’s from ex Collegian okay la. I know what Diniy, Azuan, Navin, Cherrie, Diana and the rest can do. It’s those gaijin (sorry bad choice of words) – those non Collegian before that really freaks me out. For sure, I don’t underestimate everyone in Lower Six Humanity One.

Unfortunately, some of the people in Lower Six (save for the Science Class) really just messing around in school. Sigh. Dissapointing. Even now the whole Disciplinary Board and all Green Coats (the Pengawas) and Ms Surilla are watching their every move-every act. Erm. Good, just kick them out if they only want to mess around. I want to study really hard, cant have them bugging every single joint class we are having now. No names needed to be said here.

Right, so now knowing that I can be 100% ready, I’ll do my best absorbing and withstanding the oncoming strike next week. Results? Really hard to predict la. I think I’ll do okay for Sejarah Malaysia taught by Ms Lilly. Because only Theme 1 (which consist of 6 chapters) will be out. Dui. Still quite a lot however.

For Sejarah Paper 1…erm. damn dude. Theme 1 and Theme 2 keluar. Both are like 5 chapters each!!! Though I really dont know whats going to happen, I had this bad feelings something will turn up. Teacher MUHD already commanded us to do okay though he said he wont be expecting any high class answers. Sial. Mencabar ni. Yet, I know la my own capacity now. I’ll make it, I hope. He also says he’ll brand any “underachieving” students KURANG AJAR if we didn’t do well. Lol. Definitely not me! I think you guys know what he mean by that.

MUET. Hmm…let’s see. I got A1 for English during SPM. I dont have any problem writing something over 500 words. The only things I regret now I didnt send in much of the assignments given to K1. Shit. Tula, procrastinations lagi! Just I dont know la, MUET seems like BI, yet the only thing that really hard is following and doing the right thing: writing format, skills and those sort of stuff. Well that’s hard!

Business Studies.My focus subject Lol. I’ll make it good. I love this subject! Anugera and I is like arch rival in this, though he doesnt seem to be bothered. S’okay. He’ll see my true nature. My true colors. My true unlimited capacity when I really give 100%. (Okay maybe not in next week Xcel yet for final exam this year!)

Right, what’s left? Owh, GS, General Studies…ai, this one I really dont like owh. I’ts BM AND SEJARAH MIX UP! Sigh, for GS 1 okay la, we only have to read and understands and remember facts! But for GS 2. Shit lerr… it have like 6 parts (almost like BM), lots of essay, lots of charts and graph, and all those annoying things to learn. Damn. Unfortunately, it’s also like BM! Fail GS in STPM fail la STPM ni!

*Sigh*

Erm…I think thats all.

Oh nope. Sorry, still left computing. Lol. For computing, I’ll have to say it’s fun when we’re working something on the PC in the air conditioner fitted lab. But the things kan, sigh, really make me wanna drop this thing. I know nothing about it until now ~ sure we got notes, we did presentations we send in assignments, yet, no ideas at all. Erm, what the hell ~ I dont really give a damn for COMP now. It’s not my focus point anylonger yet I’ll work out something for this as I dont want to spoil my result.

Right, tomorrow Saturday have to school owh. Shit ni. Ganti cuti hari raya nanti. Pergi jak la…boleh jumpa Anna. (kalau dia pergi la…hope so)

Last Part C

“Operation Blue Rinse Commenced! Execute! Execute! Execute!!!”

Lol. Okay so it doesnt make any sense. It’s actually a line from my finally I”m committed novel called….damn, havent got a catchy title yet. Erm. Sure, characters based on everyone around me. Lorenzo included, Zeff included, Ameline…erm, maybe in the sequel la. Me, of course la ada masuk. Time settings :’present day’, place settings: Sabah College and KK city. Erm, will work hard to write something close to a bestseller

It’s military fiction so I guess it’s predictable for someone like me. Will be coming out only on my blog sometimes next June 2009.

Okay, bye bye. Love ya, take care ~ thanks for reading